Sunday 15 March 2015

Mothers day

As many of you know I no longer live with my parents. It's great to have all my independence but that doesn't stop me missing my family every minute of every day. This was majorly proven whilst writing my mums mother's day card and my little sisters birthday card this morning.
I cried.
I realised that these sorts of occasions will never be the same. I no longer have the chance to attempt to make my mum breakfast in bed or surprise my sister by waking her up with her presents.
I know I chose to give that up but I can't help but miss that.
Do I regret moving out? No, I don't think so. But that doesn't mean I can't miss my family.
As always and especially to my mum and sister
Love Hayley Beth xxx

Sunday 1 March 2015

Mistakes

I have made far too many. But what I see as a mistake may be different to what you see as a mistake.
For example I don't see sleeping with my house mates friend as a mistake but as an opportunity. The mistake I made in that situation was listening to someone who knows how to manipulate me. Because of that I hurt a great person with a beautiful smile and great gloucester accent lol. I guess I am lucky that said opportunity hasn't ceased to exist completely but I know that he will never fog I've me but at the same time I will never be able to forgive myself. I acted like we'll a bit of a slut/bitch. I hurt someone I really wanted to get to know and who I admitidly cared about.
It sounds stupid but I couldn't stop thinking about him nor talking about him over the next couple of days. I still can't now. School girl crush much lol!!!
I guess what I'm trying to say is don't put yourself down because society deems it to be wrong, because for you it might just be perfect. Never over think anything because that is what could cause you to make a mistake. I know that is what happened in my case. You can only learn from your mistakes. You may have to make them a couple of time but it will all be worth it.
As always
Love Hayley Beth xxx